Thursday, October 28, 2010

What a funny world we live in, and what on earth am I supposed to do with it?

So life is just weird. I've been planning on going on a mission for the last couple months and I had a meeting with my bishop recently where he related to me in Football terminology that sometimes you can go the 80 yards just fine in a game, but often the last 20 are the hardest. (I'm guessing on the yardages here folks, cause, well... I grew up with 5 sisters.) But I understood what he meant. I've watched enough football games to know that it can seem a sure thing until they get to the 20 yard line and then somehow... they just never can make it to the endzone. So what does this mean? That even though you've got the ball, Satan's got a team of big bad Polynesian sized me... ok.. lets just say he knows what he's doing and he's going to play hard.

So I expected this, although everytime my bishop said "there's gonna be a man that enters your life" I brushed it off with a 'Yea, whatever' type thought in my head. Cause its true, guys enter my life all the time. But most of the time I am on my guard or really just have myself put off so that none of them really get to me. But then.... Model Guy.. Ta da!!

So I probably never would have met him if it werent by a request of one of my good photographer friends that I go to this shoot with her. But there he was and being all spazzy and funny. Well to be correct, he kept walking behind my friend and flashing me with his umm.. Fitness magazine cover- type abs. Distracting, to say the least. So we ended up shooting together, talked a little bit, and then I kind of figured that was the end of it. That maybe i'd come across him again and he would be fun to shoot with, but that was it.

Buut Nooo. Remember how I said Satan works hard at you? Well, he really does.. Model guy found me on facebook, added me and then started chatting me up. Would I want to do another shoot together? Sure. Would I be interested in doing partial nude? No. Yadayadayada. That wasnt the big deal. Believe it or not I've dealt with that before. What the problem is, is that he's actually a really fun and nice guy and likes to do alot of the same things I do. And.. I cant seem to just phase him out. I just figured I wouldnt worry about it. Dont contact him, dont try to be too flirty when I did talk to him.. that kind of thing. Except- It's hard to remember when I've had a guy be so persistant with me before... Uhh??
He is the type of guy that actually calls you up and asks if you'd like to do something, go to lunch, and empathasizes when your having a bad day. And I mean like, seriously.. Ugh.. Bleh! He's the tall, with dark hair, and handsome thing going on-type guy. But he's not mormon. And that wouldnt be so bad (I really am just looking for friends here, folks) except that he constantly brings up religion and seems to be trying to talk me out of going on my mission. What do you do with that? I'd like to have someone fun to go rock-climbing and swing dancing with like he and I both like to do.. But I dont have the best feeling about it whenever I think of being good friends with him, and I havent quite figured out what to do with it yet.

We'll see what happens. Hopefully nothing. But until then, I'll just keep reminding myself to remember that 'The best defense is a good offense', and that it really is just 20 yards. :)

1 comment:

  1. I love reading your posts, mostly because I have a 19 year old daughter struggling with these same things and it lets me know she is not the only one with these same struggles! Keep up the good work, it sounds like you know what to do, even if it means being a little lonely!