Friday, January 21, 2011

Stars shine brighter

So life has been pretty nice lately. Albeit I am living out of a suitcase and sleeping on a mattress in my little sisters sometimes chilly livingroom, I have to say I am pretty blessed. Before I got kicked out of the place I was living in (Really long story, but the short version is that my older sister's landlady is well, I have nothing nice to say about her, so I wont, (but she has some SERIOUS control/crazy... (ok, i'll be nice) issues.) and that she didnt want me staying in the house anymore. So it was either I moved out within a couple days or my sisters whole family would get kicked out of the rental house in a month. I'll admit I cried alot, cause it kinda sucks to finally have someplace somewhat comfortable and homey to live in, and the next moment be without one at all. Thankfully my family is one that is used to helping each other and trying to patch things up in the face of adversity. So my lil sis has let me call her living room home for a few weeks til I can find a new place. (Its kind of cute actually cause she doesnt have a bed, so she sleeps on the couch and when I moved in she started sleeping on mine when I go to work since she's usually up through the night. So we have a rotating schedule where we can both have a bed to sleep on. :)) My older sister may have just found a new house for everyone to be able to fit in, with more rooms and a (most likely) more understanding landlord. I'm hoping it works out, and if not, I still have faith that God knows whats going on and that things will be okay and work out in their own due time.

I realize trials are only there to make us stronger and sometimes I think God is trying to prepare me for the Strong-Man contest. But I am grateful for them nonetheless. Sometimes I feel like I need them. When life just feels like an emotionless blur, and I dont know what to think or if what's important is really important, I almost find myself wishing for one to help put things back in perspective. I thought of something that made a beautiful image in my head for it. 'Stars shine brighter the darker it gets.' (It might already be a quote that I just remembered.) Our blessings are like stars, and in a world where there are ever lights on outside, and other things to be distracted by, its amazing how we can often miss something so beautiful, until all the sudden things get darker and we are forced to see they are there, and that they are brighter than we ever realized. I'm so thankful for my family. I'm thankful for my jobs, my car, a roof over my head, and that I have friends and influences around me that keep me sane and buoyed up. And I'm thankful that God still knows I'm here. It's interesting how He work in mysterious ways. But so many times I am grateful for that, because He is the master painter, the master writer, and how boring a world it would be to live in if He weren't. ♥